Someone said to me a few weeks ago that the story of my career is to ‘have good ideas and then to have them taken’. This was an interesting comment made spontaneously, and to be honest, I’ve never really thought about it in that way. So I’ve taken a few days to reflect on it as it obviously resonated enough with me to stick in my mind, and this is what I’ve landed on. We don’t own anything, at least when it comes to concepts and innovations at work, and I’d rather see any transition as a gifting than anything negative.

There will always be competing circles, hierarchies, or priorities, which means that things you developed sitting within one may be better placed or coveted by somewhere else. Workplaces are dynamic, and there is always flux. Denying that will just result in additional stress and tension. Sometimes, you just have to have a little faith. Faith that handing something off is the right thing to do, and faith in yourself that you will always have another idea or innovation, nothing is ending, this is an opportunity for new beginnings. Despite having come to terms with it now I found this very challenging early on in my career and so I thought it was worth exploring more, in case the journey I’ve been on is helpful to others in developing their own coping mechanisms for dealing with this reality.

The academic challenge

Academia is a strange and unusual world and, although I love it, it can be baffling and difficult to understand how it works, especially when you first join. When working clinically, you are generally in a scenario where you are responsible, and therefore in some way ‘own’, the results you are working with, even if you are not the one giving actionable advice. The same is often not true in an academic context. When you are starting out, your Primary Investigator (PI) has a lot of control over the work, and owns both the risk linked to any given project and the data. As a result, I think many of us have experienced a scenario where a PI has taken either our data or our ideas and utilised them without our inclusion or consent. I once found a paper that had a bunch of my data in it, interpreted incorrectly, that had been published by a Professor in my department without my knowledge. I’ve also popped in whilst I was on leave to find a different Professor going through my lab books to see my data when they were nothing to do with me.

These are extreme examples of not great behaviour, but the principle is still present. You don’t own what you produce in academia until you get to the point where you are the one who is bringing in the money that pays for the production, and even then your funder could be considered the owner. There are lots of ways to improve this, and there are plenty of people who behave better despite this scenario. It is important to understand the dynamics and drivers in order to be able to come to terms with some of the unwritten rules however. Once you have understanding, you are in a position where you can learn to navigate the challenges.

It’s less about seniority than you’d think

I used to think that the more senior I became the more I would have the freedom to own my initiatives. That I would no longer set things up to have them taken once the majority of the work had been done or the risk managed. This is true in some ways but not in quite a lot more. The last 20 years have shown me that the difference is less about seniority and more about advocacy. If you have people in the room who will challenge and speak up for you that is more important than status alone. For instance, if a project is being discussed then the meeting will hand designated responsibility for it to someone in the room. If you are not in that room, you need someone who is to go ‘Elaine has been doing a great job on this, I’ll feedback on how it’s going right now and make sure I continue support. Elaine will have more details so how about we invite her to the next meeting in order to give us an update?’. One of the problems with working between worlds (in my case scientific, clinical and academic) is that you have fewer people invested in this kind of exchange, as you don’t sit with any particular group in a way that feels like you are a full member. You therefore have less people who are prepared to take those steps to advocate for you and your work without significant prior campaigning. I now sit in a lot more meetings, and have a much closer team, and that advocacy pathway is easier, so seniority plays in, but is not always the main driver.

Be prepared to have hard conversations with yourself

It can be tempting to play the victim. It can be tempting to see the world as unfair and that things should be different. I hate to break it to you, and I am often forced to remind myself, it’s not about you. Very few things that happen in a professional context are truly personal. We work within systems, and those systems have rules, some of which are obvious and some of which are less so. If something works, if an idea is good, and it serves the system, sometimes people will just take it. If the idea is to benefit patients, or to serve a change, then maybe we can’t ‘own’ anything, as it belongs to the system we are working within. It can feel really tough whilst you’re in it. It can feel pretty dreadful to have something you’re invested in taken away.

Sadly, ideas are not toys, and we are not in nursery, rarely is someone going to sweep in and return things to us. So you need to be able to take a reflective step back and decide how important this particular moment is. When I sit in meetings, and yet again someone is claiming ownership of a research idea, or I feel pushed out, I consciously ask myself will this matter? Will this matter tomorrow? Will this matter next week? Will this matter in six months? Will this matter next year? I do it in precisely this order, almost as a mantra, and I often find that the answer is no to at least one of these questions. This calms me in the moment and enables me to react in a logical mind set rather than an emotional one. You need to find a way to get into the right mind set to serve you, not be the servant of an emotion in that moment. Otherwise you won’t get the outcome that you are striving for.

Battles inhibit creativity

One of the reasons I try to get myself to a space where I can rationalise and move on is because it helps me. I’m not doing it for anyone else. If you are spending time fighting every battle, I find, that it means I have less band width for creativity, for new ideas, to be inspired. Frankly, I’m not interested in giving other people enough space in my head to mean that I can’t be the best version of me. There are definitely times that you need to suit up and go into battle, but most of the time it isn’t worth the impact. Keeping yourself focused on why it is that you decided to do what you are doing, and making sure you can do it in the best way possible is the best version of success. You have to let go of the fear and the protectionism in order to enable you to succeed in the long term, rather than always having a short term focus.

Assess whether you are still the right person

One of the other reasons to move to a rational space is to enable you to make balanced assessments. One of these assessments is to evaluate whether you are clinging to things for the right reasons. Sometimes we have invested so much of ourselves, of our energy, into a project that it is hard to let it go. That doesn’t mean that we are always the right person to continue. There are plenty of times when the right decision for the work is for it to pass to someone else or another group. You may have too many other projects to give it the focus it needs, or you may have upcoming work which means it will have less investment in the future. It may be that the project now needs to be advocated for at a different level, and therefore expansion requires it to be taken over by a senior leader. A really common one is that you don’t have the CV or track record to be able to be PI on the grant that is needed to take it to the next level, and therefore you need to hand over primary responsibility in order for it to succeed. Not all handing over is linked with loss, sometimes you have to let go of control of an idea or piece of work to enable it to flourish. In these moments it’s important to recognise that the handing over is something to be celebrated, rather than mourned, and seen as a sign of how far it’s come.

Know what matters to you

If, when you ask yourself the does this matter questions, you answer yes, then you need to decide if the potential costs are worth it. There are definitely times that you will recognise that something does truly matter, and when that happens you need to be able to come up with a logical plan of response. Who can you speak to? Where can you build support? How much impact can you have and will that be enough? I’m very lucky to have a great team around me who will not only advocate when I’m not in the room, but will also offer peer support. If you are not in the place to influence and you decide that it matters, you have to maneuver yourself into a position where you can. This takes time, it takes investment, it requires the expansion of social and other capital. You can’t do this for everything and so you have to be selective. The other thing that you may learn, is that during the early stages of a project that is significant to you, you can take proactive steps in order to determine the future pathway and therefore reduce any challenges before they become insurmountable.

Keep the faith

Not matter how bad it can feel in the moment, know this. You will have a new idea. You will find a new challenge. You will be inspired again. This is not the end, this is a window to a different beginning. Be honest with yourself about your personal drivers, why is this so important? Take these moments and challenges as learning opportunities. I have found people that I am over the moon to collaborate and work with long term, but they can be counted on the fingers of one hand. I have collaborated and worked with vastly more, where I have completed the work, taken the learning, but know that I would prefer not to repeat the experience. All of that is OK. Building trust takes time. Sometimes you need to work with people that have different values and drivers to you, and often once you understand those you can deliver, but every now and again it doesn’t work. You have to have the courage to keep going, the courage to keep trying, and the courage to let go of failures and difficult experiences. You have what it takes to come out of this particular crucible so much stronger. So keep the faith in yourself and you will climb mountains!

All opinions in this blog are my own